Life Is Here and Now

For each thought I voice aloud

Another hundred remain silent.

For each time I whisper, “Hold me”

Too many fearful nights have passed.

For each memory that claws the surface

Others I pack away untouched.

For each tension point that loosens

A knot in my stomach continues to grow.

For each year marked on the calendar

That alarm bell rings sharp as ever.

But for each wound that still is tender

Another is a dull, faint bruise.

For each hour of therapy in the books

This heart resembles more of human flesh.

For each image seared behind my eyes

A reminder of safety takes its place.

For each weakened, anxious moment

There is a calm that says, “You’re strong.”

For each second I want to rewind

My soul breathes, “Life is here and now.”